FaithChapter №11
7 min listen
Rescued to Rescue
God doesn't call the qualified; God qualifies the called…
March 20, 20224 min read
Listen to Chapter →The Archive
The Library
Real reflections, written from lived experience. No names. No profile pictures. No likes. Only the chapters people were finally ready to share.
12 chapters · written, spoken and filmed
RelationshipsChapter №9
Written
Trust
Trust — something we all desire but is so difficult to obtain…
February 14, 20222 min read
Read Chapter →HopeChapter №12
Written
Saying Sorry to the People Who Matter
Criminal. Felon. That's the label. Yet saying sorry to who matters most was the hardest task…
January 25, 20222 min read
Read Chapter →IdentityChapter №10
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You Must Be Brave to Be Who You're Meant to Be
Breaking toxic cycles that have become norms is quite a process, with multiple stages…
November 12, 20212 min read
Read Chapter →Starting OverChapter №8
Written
Out of Prison, Out of Place
Out of prison, things had changed — and so had I…
Content note: Mentions substance use and grief.
October 10, 20204 min read
Read Chapter →Mental HealthChapter №7
4 min listen
Numb
Yesterday my counselor told me my brain hides memories to protect me. Deep down, I want to know what happened…
Content note: Describes suicidal thoughts and severe depression.
September 24, 20202 min read
Listen to Chapter →HealingChapter №6
Written
Forgive Me for Changing
Forgive me for changing, but it was necessary. Self-care has a value money couldn't buy…
May 6, 20203 min read
Read Chapter →Mental HealthChapter №5
Written
Functioning Under an Illusion
It's easier to lie and say "I'm OK" than to explain how I really feel. I'm tired of pretending…
Content note: Describes a psychiatric hospitalization and depression.
April 26, 20203 min read
Read Chapter →MotherhoodChapter №4
6 min listen
Eleven Months
On Friday, October 4th, 2019, my son and I finally reunited after eleven long months…
October 4, 20192 min read
Listen to Chapter →MotherhoodChapter №3
Written
His First Christmas Without Me
It's his first Christmas and I won't be able to spend it with him. That breaks my heart…
December 25, 20183 min read
Read Chapter →Mental HealthChapter №2
Written
Three Weeks in Cell F1
There comes a time in life where you feel out of place from everything and everyone…
December 19, 20183 min read
Read Chapter →IncarcerationChapter №1
8 min film
The Night I Turned Myself In
No one really understands how difficult something is until they're the one going through it…
November 25, 20185 min read
Watch Chapter →These chapters come from Modesta's own journals, written between 2018 and 2022 and lightly edited for readability. Approved chapters shared by other people will join them here.